I want my life back!

I couldn’t write to you recently coz no internet connection here in school. Believe me, it is so hard. I really feel that sometimes I need to isolate myself and not speak coz it’s in vain - nothing has changed in reality. I keep pretending that it’s ok in front of my children but it’s not. 

I am writing to you at this moment as I am shaking from coldness. Imagine this - we are sleeping on a blanket, no mattress. The strong wind hasn’t stopped. Not enough blankets for covers. We cook on fire now, no electricity. What should I say more? When is this going to end? I want my life back!